*Sun, January 18th, 2009*

Hi, guys ! :D

It has been such a long time that I didn't see you in my blog . Yep, and as you guys can see, I've made lot of changes to my blog ! yay ! ;) With this brand-new-look blog, I hope that I can be more intens to write in my blog . Yes, I can feel it, haha :D Okay, before we talk about our main topic today, I'll tell you why should I redesign my blog ;)

I've been really busy these days *or months, maybe, lol* because of my college tasks and final tests .. It's been the first for me, and yes, I'm a refreshman *or refreshwoman, actually? lol* in College . And I think I just turned into a moody person in one way . When I got tired after doing my homeworks, I would be sooo lazy to do anything ! That's why I need to refresh my mind by redesigning my blog to this new look . Maybe when I see my blog on the line, I won't be sooo lazy anymore to write or to put something here before I off the line :D Got the point, rite ? Haha . Okay, let's back to our main topic today ...

I've just watched CAMP ROCK about an hour ago in DC . This is the second time I watched this movie on TV at home . When I watched it for the first time, I didn't really get the feel of what this movie wants to tell us . I mean, yes I do but, not soo special . There's no euphoria feelings like I felt when I watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL for the first time . I dunno why ? Maybe that's because I was tired after doing many things that day, or because I missed some important parts of the movie that make this movie is ACTUALLY a SPECIAL one ! :D Oh my gosh, can you believe it ? I mean, I looove DISNEY soo much ! XD But how could I missed small things like that ? Well then, my bad .. lol .

And, what I got from this movie is way way better that moral values that I've seen in HSM I think ! :D Mitchie Torres (played by Demi Lovato, of course :) character is sooo ME *yes, i know, like what everybody called it to their-self, rite ? lol :D* ! I mean, she is kinda shy, afraid of how to get fit in the new place, and how to show the world who she really is .. She didn't mean to lie to everybody, but she's still confused of what's exactly the right things she should do or not to do . Yes, I can feel it ! I still confused of what should I do to everyone here to make me being accepted . No, I don't have to lie about my Mum like what Mitchie did . All I have to do is being my self . That's the only way ! But I'm kinda, have a big problem with it . You know, I have a BIG FEAR TRAUMA in my mind, it's haunting me all the time, and I just dunno how to let it go !

It will be a very very long post if I have to tell this TRAUMA from the start, lol . 'Cause it started about 5 years ago . Oh, well, it's a long time, isn't it ? I mean, it IS a long time for somebody who being pushed by people around her/him to take their orders ? Yes, I'M TIRED OF TAKING PEOPLE'S ORDERS !! But poor me, or stupid me instead, it's hard for me to see people in troubles . Then Mach people will be soo happy to see me and ask me for a help ! *or more* And I would say, "Yes, sure", while I didn't know that I've just kinda like, gave them a 'license' to make me as their assistant . Okay, let's make this thing straight . I'M NOT YOUR ASSISTANT, PEOPLE, so you guys CAN'T give me your orders that actually BELONG TO YOU ! ;( *Oh my .. I just did say that, sorry ..*

Well, by the way, I get something in this movie . That I have to stand out, don't fit in *haha, the tagline xp* . I don't have to be someone else to be accepted . They WILL take you AS YOU ARE if you show 'em . Don't ever think that they will push you away because of your background *well, at least don't be closer friends with someone like that :)* . Take off you MASK these long time, and just wear a mask which has title YOU . Okay, girl ? :) *I keep telling my self like that but I still failed, huhu* ..

Well, I think that's it for today . I'll come back when there's new update ! ;)

Don't forget to tag me before leaving, guys .. I really really appreciate it ! :D

Okay, have a great weekend . Drive safe .. Happy happy holidays ! Yay ! *

XOXO,

tii*

Labels: experience, movie, school life, values